Showing posts with label Photo. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Photo. Show all posts

Monday, April 17, 2017

What Makes Me Mad


Can I start this in the winter?

Can I start the story on a sad note?

Can I start it on the morning when we ran up to see the sunrise from the water tower and I realized I had lost my friend forever?


Tuesday, January 17, 2017

An Audacious Plan

I heaved the laundry basket out of the way to check the dryer for loose socks. Those things went missing at an alarming rate. Aha! There it was, stuck to the side. A black crew-cut.

I overturning the basket on the bed and set to sorting, folding, stacking, and stashing. One more task checked off the list. One more mundane activity. One step closer to taking my shoes off and collapsing in front of Poirot reruns.


Photo by Shawn Harquail


Mondays made me fatalistic. This Monday was no different, as Steve had mentioned that we should plan our annual family vacation. Really? Did we have to discuss it? It would be Iowa. It was always Iowa. Cornstalks, flat fields, pigs, cornstalks, windmills, bad food, cornstalks, the occasional tulip, cornstalks. I questioned my choice of corn-on-the-cob for dinner.

Just because Steve had one million relatives who were still alive and begging to see him and I had no one besides two old uncles in Georgia, we were condemned to a lifetime of two-week expeditions to corn country. Every. Single. Year.

On my journey back toward the laundry closet, I glimpsed a purple-spotted heel peeking out from beneath the coffee table. Well, that was one sock that would have to wait until next week. I bent to pick it up and noticed it was acting as a bookmark in our picture book of Scotland. I opened it to the page on Inverness.

Sunday, November 13, 2016

Forest Spell

I'm not lost, but I wish I were. Here in this green, green place where tree tops disappear at dizzy heights into the mist, I feel small but wish I were even smaller. I sit down beside the trail, tucking my body in close to the earth, crouching, trying to disappear. The tangled ferns at my back are soft and dark and might be able to suck me in, but the hard earth below is a reality check.



The wind rises, and I catch the scent of dampness, a morning dew that never evaporates in this deep place. There's a sense of the cool earth too—swirling—as if something inside the dirt is trying to unite with the cold clouds overhead. The green needles shiver, rubbing together for warmth, and one of the great trees begins to groan. Its swaying is almost imperceptible, but I hear the sound of creaking bones—gentle, almost apologetic.

Friday, August 16, 2013

Pie Charts and Revenge: An Office Drama

You will give me a promotion!!! by rich hinton

Her work clothes were neither stylish, nor flattering. They had come off the sale rack at JC Penney's last year, casually grabbed off the hanger and piled into a scanty cart to be hauled away to a closet predominately stocked with sweat pants and oversize t-shirts. 

Regina was not cut out to be an office worker. She tended to do foolhardy things, like daydream while editing an expense record, or make friends with a particularly savage representative of the competition. Or scream and throw things at her coworkers.

"You're nothing but an arrogant pie chart. Get out of my way!"

"I am not a pie chart. If anything, I'm a bar graph."

"You're a soulless piece of corporate garbage."

"That's rather harsh."

"Dagnabit, move!"

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

A Picnic Table, Throwing Knives, and Childhood

There's an old target in our yard, rain lashed over the years so that the paint is worn down to a skin-thin layer. Years of sun have burned away the colorful concentric circles around each red bullseye. 



It once was our picnic table, the one that sat on the back deck of our old house. On the rare occasions when it snowed, my brother and I would make snow angels on top of it. We could fit a couple of them on there since we were so small. Years ago it had been replaced in its capacity as a table, but frugal Dad wouldn't let it go to waste. (He's the one who saves every plastic container that comes into our home to re-purpose as a nail, battery, or drill bit holder.) He believed in upcycling way before Thornton Kay. So the old picnic table was upcycled into an archery target for my brother and me. We'd been using hay bales, which didn't offer much of a challenge, and then a block of Styrofoam which crumbled all over the yard. This was much better. Dad erected it in the yard, leaning it up against a tree with the spray-painted tabletop serving as a lovely target.

We were budding archers, destined for the Olympics, the battlefield, or Sherwood forest, depending on the day and weather. My little brother liked to practice wearing camo, whereas I preferred my Robin Hood-esque cape that flowed majestically behind me when I strode over to wrench my arrows from the bullseye (which I'll admit didn't happen too often).

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

A Preternatural Portrait

My practice from the Write Practice prompt: Naturally focus and practice for five minutes using preternatural often.

Portrait of Sonia by Henri Fantin-Latour by cliff1066™

The curve of an arm, that inner curve where the forearm meets the bicep, the gentle, feminine join where the folds of fabric crease just so. That was where he had been working for three hours. This was only the rough first draft, the sketching, erasing, and resketching. Some people said he didn’t know when to stop. He had a preternatural obsession with grasping the perfect line, the exact replica of his niece’s inner elbow. Those few square inches of canvas maddened his dreams and kept him in a constant state of unrest.

Sonia sat perfectly still the whole time, looking out from her deep-set eyes with solid patience, not sighing or groaning under the weight of her perfect posture or that improbable fur stole. She knew that her uncle—no, not her uncle, the artist—cringed every time she moved. And so she sat in preternatural stillness.

When the painting was finished—weeks after he had expected to finish it, but delays were inevitable—the artist examined his work. There she was, Sonia, in all her quiet beauty. The canvas might as well have been a photographic plate, revealing the subject with a kind of preternatural reality beyond what was really real. 


Photo Credit: Portrait of Sonia by Henri Fantin-Latour, a photo by cliff1066™ on Flickr.

Thursday, December 6, 2012

"Let Me Go"

Woman in black by Lou Ect

"You deserve this."

The woman in black crumpled against the side of the hallway. "Don't say that." She had a thick Slavic accent that seemed peculiarly suited to despair. "You know why I did this."

"Yes, I know." The man standing in front of the closed door removed his coat and threw it over his arm, glancing behind once or twice. "I know, but that doesn't mean I forgive."

"How can you know why and not forgive?" She was pleading now, digging her fingernails into the tender flesh inside her elbow. "I did it all for you."

"No you didn't, you selfish ***. You're out for Number One. Always have been. And now it's time to pay the fiddler."

The sound of clanging metal came from a hundred feet away, the left end of the hall, around a corner. The woman's eyes went wide. "They're coming, James! Jacques, whatever your name is. Please have mercy and let me go."

"You don't think you deserve this, eh? Don't think you have to pay the price for all the hell you've put us through. Well I've got a little surprise for you--they're coming by Jove, and I'm not going to stop them."

Steps came closer, echoing on the metal floor. The woman shivered, then stood upright and close to James, tipping up her face to the flickering florescent light. "One day I will be alone, without friends or family. I will be old and wrinkled, and have nothing to show for my life. Is that not punishment enough?"

He pushed her away and waited for a sound. Nothing.

"Please."

He heard it, the ratcheting slide of a semi-automatic pistol. He turned back to the woman and seemed to note her panicked eyes and the sheen of sweat on her forehead. She let out a moan, and the man threw his coat to her.

"There, take it."

"What--"

"Ilina's passport. You don't deserve it."

A shout came from the end of the hallway and they saw three guns and the camouflaged men behind them. James stepped aside from the door and the woman scrabbled for the knob, flinging open the door and tripping up twelve steps toward the light.

In the movies she would have looked back, would have seen James's face just before the door slammed behind her.

But she did not.

Woman in black, a photo by Lou Ect on Flickr.

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

I Wish to be Seen and It Won’t See Me


Chambord's Beautiful Details by Samantha Decker
Here in the sight of splendor, 

of golden stone
of flying buttresses and of diamonds,
where kings have slept, and played, and dreamed,


here I stand and find it untouched.
I am an outsider, and it is aloof.
If I touch the glass, 
it will not shatter, 
and if it does, 
no one will blame 
me.


Oh to be visible, oh to be tangible!
To know that I, little I, will leave a mark upon the world.
Too much to hope then,
that I will be remembered someday for the 
eyes that see and fingers that know.
Too much to hope without possessing that splendor,
those 
kingly 
dreams.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Learning From Mom


I Still Cant Fold Fitted Sheets by cogdogblog
She wasn't sure how to grieve. It was a new thing to her, sudden, shocking, unfamiliar--an exotic kind of earthquake that came without an alarm. 

She stared at the cookbook, raking her fingertips across her eyebrows again and again, as if that would help her make sense of the recipe. "2 teaspoons baking soda." Baking soda? Does that have anything to do with Coca Cola, or Pepsi? She opened up the refrigerator and prodded among the molding leftovers, shifting the remains of Mrs. Parker's casserole and stacking Mrs. Wassman's pecan brownies on top of Mrs. Smith's untouched fruit salad. No baking soda. She slammed the door in frustration and realized that she didn't even want to Google the question. Actually, she hadn't gotten on the internet in three days. That's a record.

Three days ago, normal became a thing of the past. Everyday mornings, everyday coffee, everyday bickering, everyday chores, everyday studies, everyday hugs, everyday laughter, everyday eating, everyday car rides, everyday walks through the woods, everyday game nights, had all become the hazy and broken chords of theme music to another story that she was no longer living. 

Mom. Gone. Gone for good. And it hit her again and she crumbled onto the couch and felt like doing nothing for a thousand years. 

She'd never be able to ask her now; never ask her where her clothes were, never ask her if the car was free, never ask her if she approved of the liberal agenda or what the meaning of life really was. She'd never be able to learn what made Mom Mom. Never learn what she could do to be more like her. She wished she knew how to grieve. She would have asked Mom, if she could.

Her heart jumped as the dryer buzzed a long and insistent command. It was time to get the sheets out before they wrinkled. 

She hated folding sheets, especially the fitted ones. Those were like some unusual implement of torture designed just for inept homemakers. She pulled a cream-colored wad out of the gaping jaws of the dryer, luxuriating for a moment in the cozy warmth, then stared at the incomprehensible corner seams and the elastic edging that seemed to mock her. Mom would know how to do this. I would ask her.... 

Then a thought--the first clear thought she'd had in what seemed like weeks--crept through a crack in her brain and sent her flying to the linen closet, the one in her parents' bathroom. Dad's bathroom. She opened the door and stared at the neat piles of red, white, pink-and-blue spotted, and forest green quilts and towels. Jerking out a crisp square of cloth from the top shelf she almost brought the entire assortment of linens down on her head, but came away with the closet mostly intact. 
Folded by ammgramm
There was the fitted sheet. Clean, slightly mussed, but beautifully folded in that magical way that she was sure only her mother could do. She took it back to the laundry room on shaky knees and laid it out on the folding table. With ginger fingers she opened it up until it turned into a rectangle. Then she opened up the two edges like wings, and made a mental note. Working backwards she discovered a symmetrical semi-circle of cloth, generous layers of elastic corners nestled into one another so sweetly. She began now to unfold, noting the inside and outside seams, memorizing the sequence of steps, until the whole fresh white sheet billowed around her like a comforting angel. 


She refolded it--slowly and clumsily. She had to go back more than once, smooth out her eyebrows, try again. But after a few minutes it was finished. Then she turned to the cream-colored sheet, now a hopeless mass of wrinkles, and began the process again, murmuring cues under her breath, anticipating the next movement, working in a rhythm. The result wasn't very good. She unfolded it; tried again.  


Half an hour later it was finished and a neat, creamy square sat placid beside the white one. There was no dinner on the table, no biscuits as she had planned, but there were these sheets. Mom's sheets. It wasn't much, but it was a little, tiny something.

I Still Cant Fold Fitted Sheets, a photo by cogdogblog on Flickr.
Folded, a photo by ammgramm on Flickr.

Monday, August 22, 2011

Samaritans


From www.palestineremembered.com




Lorena PinUp by Wiros
Lorena PinUp, a photo by Wiros on Flickr.













Act I

I examined my face in what was left of the water. The skin around my eye was turning dark purplish blue, and it was throbbing so hard I thought for sure that I would see the reflection pulse to the painful rhythm. Eli had hit me again, but what of it? There were worse things in the world than getting smashed in the face one more time. Like feeling you were worthless. Like waiting for the day when your neighbors would finally throw you out on the trashheap where you belonged.
The chores wouldn't wait. I did all the usual things, filling that big empty hole inside by planning what I would cook for him tonight. I had all kinds of ideas, new experiments that he would certainly enjoy. He liked it when I cooked new things for him. He liked it when I paid attention to him.
Noonday came—as it usually did—and the water wouldn't fetch itself. I wished it would. But at least I wouldn't have to go out with all the others, feeling their eyes on me, seeing them talking to one another, saying things behind their hands that they would never say straight to my face. At least if I went out at noon they would all be in their little houses where it was safe and cool and clean. I would go out to Jacob’s well alone.
My village of Sychar sat on the southeastern slope of Mount Ebal, not far from the gloomy ruins of old Shechem. Below, shimmering in the noonday sun, lay a crossroads, a little plain, and Jacob's well. Mount Gerizim, the holy mountain, frowned at me from across the valley. It was only a fifteen minute walk from my house to the well, not unpleasant in the cool of late autumn.
It was usually a lonely walk, but of course I didn't mind. On that day though, I met a group of men coming from the south. Jews. You could tell it by their clothes, their mannerisms, and the way they wrinkled their noses as if smelling something nasty.  What they smelled was Samaritan flesh and Samaritan homes and Samaritan mountains. They looked like butterflies forced to feed on dung. They were taking the shortcut through Samaria, no doubt, the "unsavory" way to get from Judea to Galilee.
I kept my head down, sticking to the opposite side of the road, ignoring them as best I could. I felt their stares, but shrugged them off. When I got to the well, though, there was another one there. A Jew like the rest, he had apparently lingered by the well to rest himself while the others went into the village to conduct their business. He was staring into the well as I approached, then he looked up at me and I put my head down.
Jewish men don't talk to women out of doors. Much, much, much less a Samaritan woman. I prepared to lower my waterpot into the well, but almost dropped it when I heard a low voice say, "Give me a drink." I looked around, as if there were someone else—a Pharisee or something—standing nearby whom this man might have been talking to. No such thing. I noticed his soft brown eyes following me as I drew the water.
"How is it that you, a Jew, ask me for drink, since I'm a Samaritan woman?"
"If you knew the gift of God, and who it is who says to you, 'Give me a drink,' you would have asked him, and he would have given you living water."
I don't know what I was expecting, but that wasn't it. I looked at him. Hard. Should I be skeptical? Should I be amused? I decided on somewhat sarcastic. "Sir, you have nothing to draw with and the well is deep (about 100 feet deep). Where do you intend to get that living water?" He didn't respond, Just sat there, placid. I wanted to needle this man, this Jew who was sitting on our well as if he owned it. "You are not greater than our father Jacob, are you, who gave us the well, and drank of it himself and his sons and his cattle?"

Monday, August 15, 2011

Darling

Liquid brown eyes like deep pools of dreamy sleep, delicate hair that’s as soft as a cloud could ever dare to be. An inquisitive look, that quirk of the head, one twitch of your curvaceous nose, and I’m gone.


bella-white in window by Christoffer Mørch
bella-white in window, a photo by Christoffer Mørch on Flickr.

Friday, June 24, 2011

Alone, Out of Love


Girl against the wall by Maxime Guilbot



We came here to have a really good time. Why, oh why does it always turn out like this?

I’m standing very close to the concert stage now, the bass is beating rhythmically through my body, the vocalist is making out with the microphone, and rainbow light effects dance overhead to the crushing applause of the crowd. It’s one of my first concerts, one of my favorite bands. Nissa and I have the same taste in music—bold, vibrant, cutting-edge—and you should have heard our squeals when we realized that we were actually going to see this group in concert.

Then Nissa said we had to take Brian along with us, and everything changed.

The hall erupts into piercing screams, the thudding of hundreds of pairs of feet, and I’m pummeled from every side by shrieking fans. But where are they? Where have they gone? I’m all alone by a concrete wall, all alone in a packed concert hall. Brian and Nissa are somewhere—but how on earth am I supposed to find them in this crush of bodies? Stubborn tears needle the corners of my eyes.

The way they were looking at each other in the car on the way over here. The way their hands were touching. It sent a shiver down my spine and I didn’t know why.

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Ennui

Blowing Bubbles, originally uploaded by Justin Shearer.



What is this dim, purplish monster? This cuddlesome virus that stalks in the midafternoon? It lulls one to sleep, beckoning from the tepid waters of a bath heaped high with frothy bubbles. Turn the corner of pleasure and it is there, staring you in the face. You have been satiated, satisfied. What could be left?


Pleasure can be a heartless taskmaster: exacting what everyone wants to give, but disappearing so quickly that it must immediately be replaced by a different kind of pleasure. A constant cycle--the Ouroboros--and it bores in the end. Even the beautiful, tickling, majestic power of self-fulfillment can leave a sullen aftertaste.    


Still, this monster is a cannibal, a creature that feeds on its own flesh. It would suck you into the bubbles, stroking your eyelids, making you believe that there is but one alternative to pleasure-seeking. But it is harmless, really. Apathy. Inertia. Beautiful ennui....

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

The Path that Runs by Frostlight

Bench, originally uploaded by The Neepster.

Slight and all alone, where will you go? 
The frost beckons down the path,
will you follow,
will you follow it? 

Sit down on this bench and rest,
no hurry now to run.
The path that runs by frostlight
will not perish in the sun.

Monday, March 1, 2010

The Figure

img001-i, originally uploaded by *Zephyrance - don't wake me up..

Standing alone, you can see beauty in the dullest things. Browned weeds, trembling in a little breeze; concrete pillars between metal bars; street-lamps high and garbage low upon the street-side. Standing alone, it all harmonizes. Colors meld and blur, coalescing into a subtly varied palette of wheat and barley, flax and iron. Old stones, new pavement, thrown together into this scene and somehow making it, no matter how contrasting.

Standing alone, you can see that the beauty is in the way the golden light of afternoon slants over the street-side, and how a figure in purple sets off the deeper tones in everything around her. The weeds are now picturesque--waving tendrils of deadened springtime--and the pavement is romanticized--an empty road leading somewhere. All because of that figure, standing alone.